numbers.--------------------
why are you lying?
you give everyone false hope in me.
stop making them think that i can actually do something!
i hide behind you, wondering when i'll be found out.
deceptive little numbers.
so sly.
you really had me believing your lie.
had me believing in me.
how did you do it?
you managed to instill both
cowardice
and
confidence
in me.
but what if there is truth to these numbers?
if ever, all was only ephemeral.
someday all will be disillusioned.
ambivalently, i wait.
no numbers.
no shelter.
just me.
i know no better than others
what will be seen.
i'm waiting for a life changing experience.
therein lies my flaw.
