wtf?

Hot Topic sells Anime merch?

press pause

Yes, I know it is a trite clause

But can I, please, please press pause?

Set the cruise control for my mind

Or maybe, possibly, even rewind?

The wick

It burns down to a speck

The tick

And tock go on to this wreck

I pile on

Ignoring each pylon

Each cautionary sign

For the destruction that is mine

I've got to put a stop to this: my strife

I've got too little time to miss my life

How soon till I crumble?

Will someone get me out of the rubble?

Or can someone pose as my double

To keep me out of trouble

And not burst my bubble?

Keep me thinking "I can"

Keep me pushing for it all

Or show me that I can't

Show me the wall

The wall that is reality

That despite my ability

I can't take on the world

No, I'm not "just a girl"

But I am human

I'm not a superhero with superhuman strength

I can't leap buildings 400 feet in length

I can't fight bad guys, save lost souls

Nor can I take on this life, these roles:

Student, co-chair, athlete, designer,

Friend, friend-girl, member, daughter

Where is the writer, singer, thinker, sleeper?

But how can I be free when all yell, "Keep her!"?

Excellence in all I'm not capable of giving

But excellence in none won't keep me living

Mediocrity be mine?

I don't want to settle

Yet at the same time

This kettle

Is about to heat up

The whistle, go off

The wick, burn out

The walls, cave in

My back, give way

My mind, burst open

My self, break down

Is this a preview of what is to come?

At the end of it all, is this the sum?

An unhappy life of deliverables and deadlines

"Yearning to Press Pause" as my life's headline?

Of course, I would be avoiding the breadlines

But would that matter without time to eat a crumb?

rent soundtracks?

Rent (2005 Movie Soundtrack) [SOUNDTRACK]

Rent (1996 Original Broadway Cast) [CAST RECORDING]

The Best Of Rent: Highlights From The Original Cast Album (1996 Original Broadway Cast) [CAST RECORDING]

Rent (Highlights from the Original 2005 Motion Picture Soundtrack) [SOUNDTRACK]

wow.

birthdays

november
5 - peter l. & tiffany t.
7 - kyleen c.
13 - lynette e., andrew o., thomas s. & joseph s.
14 - teo g.
17 - coleen m.
18 - auntie lyn g.
19 - calvin m.
21 - danny t., paulo m., ana m., jeremy t.
23 - joe v.
24 - kristine g.
26 - dan c.

wow. (sorry if i left you out.)

january
25 masaki m. & christine b.
26 mary n.
27 geoff o.
29 lew c.
30 kevin d.
31 ate lyn f. (i think...)
february
1 ingrid c., michelle g. & tarra f.
2 kristin t. & patrick b.
3 arvin a.
4 jennifer m.
6 greg. v.
7 caitlyn d.
8 me!

almost 2 straight weeks of birthdays! if your bday's on the 28th of jan or the 5th of feb, introduce yourself to me so i can add you to the bday list. d=

nonsense

every once in a while, my uncle fwds e-mails to me. here's an extract from one i received today that i thought i'd share.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who run in front of car get tired.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who run behind car get exhausted.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Baseball is wrong: man with four balls cannot walk.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Panties not best thing on earth, But next to best thing on earth.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
It take many nails to build crib, but one screw to fill it.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

i should name it "adam"

there it is! the new member of the manalo family. once again, our family is a family of toyotas: camry, avalon, tacoma, and now, corolla. after a bit of communication drama, my parents and i took her/him home. the drive pwns that of the civic's. not as much compartment space. a bit weird. this is too little, my sister's camry's too big, the civic was just right.
yes, my friends, a different car every week. first week of nov: civic; 2nd: avalon; 3rd: camry; 4th: corolla if my mom will let me drive it.
anyway. enough of this pointless blog.

ambiance was last night. what i saw of it was pretty good. it inspired me to think of non-love poetry (since pretty much every topic was about relationships other than ethan's carnivore condemnation). i came up w/ something in my head but i didn't write it down... maybe i'll share something next quarter.

itc's still around.

ski trip's coming up.

projects are being due... thus, i am off to program.

or sleep.

ciao!

(heehee. the pepsi commercial w/ the two people listing italian food as if they were having an actual conversation is hilarious!)

shopping!!!

so after a bit of volleyball w/ barkada, i went down to the galleria at tyler to buy a bit of business attire for my scholar/donor luncheon @ kellogg west tmw.
i got these shoes:

well, actually, the ones pictured are steve madden glorify for $69.95. i bought classified brand imitations for < $25. heheheh.

i also picked up a few things from forever 21: pinstriped woven jacket, black capri pants, and charcoal pants.

i still need to buy: boots, a dressy black belt, brown shoes, more tops!

sometimes... i'm such a girl.

concert crazy!

So many concerts!

October 7 - THRICE @ UCI Bren Events Center
October 14 - LA Philharmonic @ Walt Disney Concert Hall
October 23 - should've gone to the Foo Fighters/Weezer concert for MISSA Fundraiser
October 28 - Nintendo Fusion Tour (FOB, TSL, MCS) @ SOMA (San Diego)
November 4 - Mt. SAC Chamber Singers @ Mt. SAC
November 12 - Paul McCartney @ Arrowhead Pond in Anaheim (MISSA Fundraiser)
November 17 - Ambiance (APITG Open Mic Nite... kinda counts) @ URSA Major A
November 26 - STD/Senses Fail @ Sunset HOB

O=

another almost

Another close call

Another near fall

Another almost.

So close to losing

So scared of choosing

To bear this ghost.

Another halt right before the wall

Another jerk; a stop or stall?

Once again we've come to this

Once again, it's hit and miss

When will drench turn drought?

When will luck run out?

Tunnels and white lights snatched back

Cold words and white looks retract

Air in lungs

Blood in veins

Will this be

But RAM in brains?

Let this be the last

Let the need disappear

Let this feeling remain

Let the heart persevere

No more awkward silences

As water crashes down

No more worlds apart

While in the same town

No more calls close.

No more almosts.

car troubles

The civic has been quite problematic recently. In the past 3 months:

• the check engine light has gone off twice (both times it was taken to the dealers...)
• my right windshield squirter wasn't squirting (it's still a bit clogged)
• someone dented my car
• my windshield had to be replaced (actually, i think it was more than 3 mo)
  
• my accelerator stopped responding (or the engine died or something) twice (once when i was almost home, another time on the 71)

Other car issues:

• the AC/fan/heater doesn't send air to the feet
• at high speeds it sounds like a window's still open
• it shakes when you brake sometimes...

If we can't fix whatever made my car stop out of nowhere, I might get a new car. O= Nothing fancy, though. I actually hope they fix my car... I want to avoid another expense as much as possible. But if we happen to sell it... I hope potential buyers don't read this blog. d=

such a nerd am i

(23:54:40) ryan: ryanaustinTextBox.text = CInt((unhappytextbox.text) + CInt(pissedofftextbox.text).ToString("C")
(23:54:46) ryan: oops
(23:54:57) ryan: another one of )'s in there
(23:55:46) me: i've never seen CInt before
(23:55:52) me: buuuuuuut
(23:55:56) me: let me guess what happens
(23:56:16) me: wait
(23:56:27) ryan: lol
(23:56:27) me: is that cLnt or cint?
(23:56:31) ryan: Cint
(23:56:36) me: kk
(23:56:47) me: so the text that will show up in your new txtbox
(23:56:55) me: will be the integers
(23:57:01) me: from un happy & pissed off
(23:57:05) me: converted to strings
(23:57:11) me: possibly?
(23:57:25) ryan: excellent young lady
(23:57:29) me: really?!?!
(23:57:31) me: muahahahah
(23:57:43) ryan: you are queen nerd
(23:57:46) ryan: congrats
(23:57:47) ryan: lol
(23:58:00) me: hahahah


yay for nerdiness!

OneNote 2003 Demos and Tour

OneNote 2003 Demos and Tour

wowmom!

sweepstakes, as well!