decisions and consequences

A topic of discussion today was bad decisions. Actually, not just bad decisions, but the 5 worst decisions ever made in a certain situation. It was really easy to come up with them.

What hasn't been so easy is dealing with the consequences. I've been arguably fortunate enough to have made it through a lot of bad situations. Several bad decisions that I've made in my life haven't turned out as bad as they could have. People in my life have been very forgiving. God has protected me through rough situations and blessed me with much more than I deserve, despite all the mistakes I've made. I think that somehow conditioned me to have a false sense of invincibility.

As weird as it may sound, I'm glad I'm finally being held accountable for my mistakes. Of course I wish it didn't take such severe events to open my eyes, but I'm stubborn and it takes me a while to learn my lesson. I think I'm finally learning. I always considered myself a responsible person, but not until recently did I actually have to take responsibility for the things I had done. The past six months have been such an enlightenment in all aspects of my life. It's crazy to think back to less than a year ago when I was just stumbling around aimlessly, not thinking critically about myself, my relationships, my current role in this world and my future.

I don't have all the answers, but I'm excited to see how things play out. Scratch that. I'm excited to see where I can take this. I know you can't control what happens to you, but I'm determined to start living life proactively.

decisions, decisions

life is crazy

It's been a pretty crazy few months. These past few weeks especially have been like a roller coaster. Seeing the consequences of bad decisions... Being confronted with new major decisions... When I think about the major one I have to make, I start getting a headache.

Let's hope I end 2009 with better decision making...

summer 2009

i shall name thee the summer of single stupidity.

change

waiting for the stars to align

the single life

so far, it's been a dangerous handful of months.

wow.

excited

Team Alegre + Children's Hospital of Los Angeles + 2009 Nike+ Human Race at USC = :D

(500) Days of Summer

"It's these greeting cards, Sir, these cards, these movies, these pop songs. They're responsible for all the lies, the heartache, everything! We're responsible! I think we do a bad thing here. People should be able to say how they feel, how they really feel, without some strangers putting words in their mouths. The truth. A card is a nice thought but it shouldn't do the dirty work for you. You love someone, tell them yourself, in your own words. Maybe it's not love after all. Maybe there's no such thing as love...
It's all crap. We make and peddle crap. And sometimes people believe in this crap. I just can't do it anymore, Mr. Vance. There's enough bullshit in the world without my help. I quit."